It seems have been very impatient myself this grasp his comfort the freedom, am proper for a prisoner who is waiting the freedom day himself, where the freedom day is the determination of the aim of the step in the life for him to do the matter that is most good and useful for himself, especially for people that most close to him.
When the heart, the spirit and my thoughts no longer felt comfortable in undergoing this work, I cannot force the heart, the spirit and my thoughts to continue to am in this work, that is just the same torture myself and make me feel not more comfortable.
After many that learn I decide to stop from my work, of many sides that ask about my decision seriousness in fact there are those that regret the decision that I take this, but have some also that like and support my decision.
In fact this decision not I take in a rushed manner, need a long time to dare to take this decision. I am not frightened of cause and effect that will emerge after I really stop from the work that made me know matters that uptil now I do not know and not I understand.
Much wisdom that is obtained by me in this work and to my experience if eventually I will have efforts personally,how manage him and how pay attention to and treat my employee well.
My reason for stopping being me wants to undertake efforts personally. I want to advance and develop, unlike this continue. Then I decide to undertake these efforts from ZERO. That am most important am me want to prove that I can stand above foot myself, that I can begin efforts despite still am small without help from the hands of the MY PARENTS. Because that according to me is better. It would be better if the hands above than the hands below.
May Allah give the ease for me and the family to undergo my efforts
AMEN
